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[I WONDERED IF THAT WAS THE CASE FFF.]

Bordeaux: I do not know why you continue to try to keep communications with me
Bordeaux: When all it seems to do is feed this feeling you have about me that you struggle with

Bordeaux: yes i know memes

Fox: It is worth it to me to try.
Fox: That reminds me. There is something I wish to tell you.
Fox: I have decided not to kill you.
Fox: The meme is still uploading, please wait for it.

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[Eichi is so thoroughly baffled. He should be used to weird ass behavior. He loves Leo Tsukinaga, who may or may not be an actual alien, and yet. Fox has stumped him. It's like Aoba all over again except he's not sure if Aoba ever debated murdering him.

He probably did.]

Bordeaux: ...

Bordeaux: lovely

Bordeaux: forgive me if i don't believe you
Bordeaux: not that it bothers me either way
Bordeaux: you cannot kill me in a way that matters anyway

Fox: I agree.
Fox: Moreover, killing you would not be an equal retribution. It would be an escalation.
Fox: You did not kill me, after all. Though I did think you would, at the time.
Fox: I have not decided what I am going to do to you yet.

[Fox is typing... appears for a while, disappears, then appears again]

Fox: I will confess that I have thought about killing you.
Fox: I still do. It is a selfish fantasy.
Fox: But I do not think it would truly satisfy me.

Bordeaux: How very noble of you

Bordeaux: I only didn't kill you because a hostage is useless to me dead
Bordeaux: I wanted to kill you too, but frankly dying here is sooooo

Bordeaux: NOTHING

Bordeaux: Who cares if you die here? Who cares if I die? Isn't it funny how people in this actual, literal hellscape think that dying, a minor inconvenience at worst, is the worst thing you can do to a person?
Bordeaux: When you can torture someone forever. You can make them forget everything and everyone you've ever loved. You can make them forget who they even are. We have inhuman powers that allow us to enact such wild torments upon each other. I could eat you alive in your dreams, and you would end up in a hell of my own choosing. Your powers to force someone to repeat their actions can trap someone in their own body. There are units who can force you to feel or not feel something.
Bordeaux: And you think temporary murder is an "escalation", when I was threatening not to kill you, but to wipe you directly from existence?

Bordeaux: In any case, I don't really care.
Bordeaux: If satisfying you will get you off my case, then so be it.
Bordeaux: Name your price.

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Fox: Take me out on a date.

Edited 2020-01-24 16:25 (UTC)

[Why.

Why this.

Eichi wants to rescind his offer.]

Bordeaux: ugh

Bordeaux: fine, whatever
Bordeaux: just know that my heart is spoken for

Fox: As is mine.
Fox: Let me know when you have finished preparing. I will wait, though not for too long.
Fox: ;)

Bordeaux: Sure sure
Bordeaux: I guess meet me outside so our units don't have to see our shame

Fox: Speak for yourself.
Fox: I will be down shortly.

[and indeed, fox is waiting not too far from the hotel, dressed nicely for his deito :*]

[Eichi groans, and when he shows up he's just dressed like a mob boss because that's what he is.

He hates this but he's here and he has sunglasses which will surely make his disgusted faces look less like that.]

Alright, let's make this as painless as possible.

You could put some effort into it, you know.

[holds out his hand. lead me, your majesty]

Besides, I thought you enjoyed pain.

[Eichi is wearing his best "sorry I'm not excited, I didn't want to come" face. But he takes Fox's hand regardless.]

Am I meant to be enjoying this?

[he lifts eichi's hand to his lips and kisses it, all gentlemanly]

If you feel you are not up to the task, I can take the reigns for a while.

Would that satisfy you, though?

[He manages not to look annoyed by the kiss to his hand. He sighs, closing his fingers on Fox's.]

Would the onsen theme park please you? It's probably that or the theater. We don't have many options for dates.

No, but there is something I wish to show you at some point.

[it probably has to do with the sketchbook tucked under his arm]

I have not been to the onsen in a while. The weather is still quite cold, so that sounds pleasant.

Of course.

[He's not surprised. Fox using his art to show something is akin to an idol getting out their feelings in song. Inevitable, really.]

It is probably one of the more explicitly romantic sites as well. The park isn't so bad, but it is too cold out for me to stay outside long.

I shall keep you warm if you have need of body heat.

Shall we go?

[sparkle sparkle]

Let us be off.

[He won't tell Fox how bad he is at seduction. He's sure he knows. He has to know, right? He'll just take Fox's hand and begin leading him toward the subway. Eichi has yet to buy his car.]

[fox has no idea.

once they're on the train, fox sits next to eichi and opens his sketchbook; he flips through a few pages that are filled with quick sketches of eichi, some close-ups of his expressions--many of them frowning or full of contempt and anger, but just as many looking deeply smug and satisfied, even sadistic--along with close-ups of his hands and wings and tail.

and there's one that fox very quickly turns over so eichi doesn't see, don't mind that one ahahaha '-']

Do not worry, I will not ask you to pose for me tonight. We can save that for another time.

[Eichi expected a picture. Maybe two. Here furrows his brow when it becomes more than that. At the closeups of his hands, and of his expressions. It's weird to see, but when he looks at Fox again, he's a little...??? concerned???]

...This is. A lot. Why...? I've done nothing to you worse than what I'd done to...

[To Shu. Leo. Rei. Kanata. Even Wataru. They've all had very different but mostly understandable reactions. Why is this so baffling to him...?]

Has this truly been the worst thing you've endured here, or is it simply the only one you feel you can exercise agency over?

[

the question catches fox off-guard. his index finger twitches as he's about to turn another page, and he stops and just stares at the paper for a few moments]

During those last few--hours? days?--of time spent in your room, it all sort of blurs near the end, I could feel myself slipping into nothingness. I resisted as much as I could, but I could feel the inevitability creeping up on me. One of my last thoughts I can recall before seeing Shu was making a vow to come back, even as one of the Damned, even as a ghost. I vowed to come back to my loved one's arms again. And I vowed to haunt you for the rest of eternity, however little that would mean.

Do you know, I never made it back to Taisho until much later? As soon as Shu and I entered the elevator, we were whisked away to that awful House. I spent the entire game greying and losing my sense of self... as I also grew mad with bloodlust and rage. I have no doubt that, had I come upon you there, I would have lost all sense of reason and attacked you until you were little more than a bloody heap.

Afterwards, I found I could not bring myself to draw, or to paint. Inspiration had left me, and without it I felt empty, broken. Thankfully, a friend suggested to me that I try to expel my pain through art--perhaps by doing so, I might be able to exorcise it. And so I did. I painted what had happened to me, what I had felt, what mixed-up memories I could piece together of the entire experience. That is how others came to know about it. And in a way, it worked; I was able to create art again, but more often than not what appears in my mind's eye are images of you. So, while I have exorcised my pain, I have absorbed all thoughts of you.

You are not the worst thing that has ever happened to me. But you are close. It is true that I regret treating you poorly and I regret trying to hide our relationship from Shu. It is also true that I did not deserve to be hurt so egregiously in retaliation. I do not see you as my captor anymore... but still, I feel you have a hold on me that I am unable to remove. Would killing you remove it? I fear it will only make me want to pull you closer. Would leaving you be remove it? I think my yearning for you would drive me mad. I have made attempts to salvage what remains of our friendship, but they do little good. Hating you makes my chest hurt. The thought of loving you makes it hurt, too. Would it be better to surrender to you? Or to fight you tooth and nail? I do not know.

So, I have resigned myself... to being consumed by thoughts of you. To this obsession. Something will break it eventually, I hope, but fighting it has done me no good.

[Eichi understands better in long form, and so he nods along, beginning to "get" it. It's not judgemental, but he's not ready to be compassionate yet either. Whether Fox thinks he deserved what Eichi did to him or not doesn't matter, because Eichi already knows he was wrong to do it. He was wrong but he's always wrong.

He just thinks for awhile, sighing and sitting back on his wings, looking ahead in thought.]

I don't know what you'd want from me. I don't think there's any kind of revenge that'd work to soothe your ills. I don't think you'd be satisfied if I were to be in a relationship with you, either.

Do you just want... casual sex...?

[He doesn't understand why that'd help, but whatever. Maybe he just wants to take out his frustrations on him or something???]

I don't really understand. I've had the same feeling in some ways towards Itsuki-kun... No matter how cruel he is to me, I'm always drawn back, but I don't know what would help it. It ebbs when he's not near, but flows when I get him all riled up. Maybe I'd cool off too, if he and I...

Oh, what a foolish thought.

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i thought about it and this comment is funnier as a double

ftstxchbn FOX

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god eichi is hilarious

he's such a TURD

i love hi

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