The things I have done, the cruelty I have inflicted on others was once so truly terrible and utterly inescapable that I forced many to throw themselves from a rooftop, rather than live in my world. I am the reason Itsuki Shu acts the way he is, how I shattered him. And I gave birth to Tsukinaga Leo's paranoia. I've been the direct or indirect cause of much suffering.
I have a habit of wanting beautiful things so badly, that I when I catch them, I hold them too tight and crush them like butterflies in my fingers.
[He taps another few notes on the piano, thoughtfully.]
....... I don't think I can change, because despite all of the heartbreak, I am still doing the same thing. Except this time, maybe I can keep those dearest to me out of my way.
Speaking from the experience of someone who was left behind by someone who thought it would be better if they were to solve their problems themselves at the expense of their own life.
Don't.
. . .
Unless you really want to see what they're capable of, I suppose.
[He pauses, thinking on that and tapping on his piano again.]
....... I'll take that in mind. But I will try of course. I do not want to leave Tenn and Wataru behind, even if I am afraid that they might get burned if they stand too close.
I consider them my equals in strength and skill. They are just as powerful as I am, probably much moreso actually, though I think I have ambition beyond theirs. Nothing wrong with that, but it does mean they.... seem to follow my wishes? I don't really know how to compromise such a thing in my mind.
Did you know Wataru used his wish for me, when he graduated? After all of this, everything he had to go through, he still deferred to me, despite my being so...
['Inferior' is what he wants to say. But it's wild when you have both an inferiority and superiority complex, isn't it, Intensity?]
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Then I'm out of guesses.
[That's it.
That's how deep the emotional competency goes on this one.]
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Yes.
That's the favor I want.
cw: talking about past suicides
I have a habit of wanting beautiful things so badly, that I when I catch them, I hold them too tight and crush them like butterflies in my fingers.
[He taps another few notes on the piano, thoughtfully.]
....... I don't think I can change, because despite all of the heartbreak, I am still doing the same thing. Except this time, maybe I can keep those dearest to me out of my way.
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
Intensity absolutely does not say.]
You don't think you can change...?
Ridiculous.
You're the only one who can change yourself.
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
I will try to take that in mind, but it hasn't worked so far. It is easy to say you will change yourself, but in practice it is quite difficult.
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
And you think that Tenn and Hibiki haven't figured this out?
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But maybe they do not know how deep it runs. [Sighs.] What am I to do?
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
Don't.
. . .
Unless you really want to see what they're capable of, I suppose.
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
....... I'll take that in mind. But I will try of course. I do not want to leave Tenn and Wataru behind, even if I am afraid that they might get burned if they stand too close.
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
Do you consider them your equals?
Re: cw: talking about past suicides
I consider them my equals in strength and skill. They are just as powerful as I am, probably much moreso actually, though I think I have ambition beyond theirs. Nothing wrong with that, but it does mean they.... seem to follow my wishes? I don't really know how to compromise such a thing in my mind.
Did you know Wataru used his wish for me, when he graduated? After all of this, everything he had to go through, he still deferred to me, despite my being so...
['Inferior' is what he wants to say. But it's wild when you have both an inferiority and superiority complex, isn't it, Intensity?]
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I think that means he's decided whether he wants to get burned or not.
Try not to make that choice for him.