[ Behind this one is a tucked piece of paper. It wasn't drastically ripped out or anything, but it definitely didn't belong. It isn't dated or anything but maybe it's obvious it's the first entry, the one he had originally mentioned. He probably left a fake journal in his room. Sorry Eichi. You don't get to experience it until he says so. ]
I wonder what sort of dream was left behind me, though it's not even something I had aimed for. I wonder if I had a name to start with. Surely if I had been given one, I would have remembered it. But I think that if that question could be answered, I wouldn't want to hear it. It would have been the first thing I discarded, even though I don't like leaving pieces of myself behind. I hold onto my name tightly, as if it's about to slip through my fingers.
It feels like that grip is a vice, never to be broken, when I see you so happy. Just to remember that your existence is blossoming into what you'd like it to be, it makes me feel better. Fufu, it's a bit selfish, but I have been this way for awhile now.
[ tl;dr He was homesick and seeing your happy face makes him feel better.
There's one last bit of writing before uh, Eichi is finally released from reading hell. ]
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I wonder what sort of dream was left behind me, though it's not even something I had aimed for. I wonder if I had a name to start with. Surely if I had been given one, I would have remembered it. But I think that if that question could be answered, I wouldn't want to hear it. It would have been the first thing I discarded, even though I don't like leaving pieces of myself behind. I hold onto my name tightly, as if it's about to slip through my fingers.
It feels like that grip is a vice, never to be broken, when I see you so happy. Just to remember that your existence is blossoming into what you'd like it to be, it makes me feel better. Fufu, it's a bit selfish, but I have been this way for awhile now.
[ tl;dr He was homesick and seeing your happy face makes him feel better.
There's one last bit of writing before uh, Eichi is finally released from reading hell. ]